Fighting Alone in Hell....

 "सागर किनारे रेत का घरोंदा बनाता इंसान
फिर लहरों में उन्हें ढहेता देखता इंसान
जाने क्या सोच कर फिर से लकीर खेचता इंसान,

चूड़ी की तरह छन् से टूटता इंसान
फिर खुद की ही राख में खुद को ढूंढता इंसान
परिंदे की तरह फिर उसी खाख में से जिंदा होता इंसान,

कुछ तो सोचता हैं शायद, तभी तो हर पल हैं झूझता इंसान,
फिर से देखो रेत पर लकीर खीच रहा इंसान,
सागर किनारे रेत का घरोंदा बनाता इंसान"

After a Long time, I revisited myself through these lines...wrote them few years back when I first stepped on a Beach in Mumbai, and then instantly fell in Love with that City.


Those were the most beautiful days of my life (up till now), Lot of Fun...total Lukhagiri....and also exposure to the real world.

Now I have to Work, can’t study more (saala enthu nahi karta), and tats why living in a place named as Jharsuguda, Don’t know why am I here...tried to be as far as possible from Manufacturing sector (by opting Computer Science as engineering stream over core branches...although I had zero percent interest in CS, then did my MBA (mktg.) to escape from simple coding Job, and also wished to be in sales for my complete life...and also in Mumbai too....)

But Fate struck its Blow, and Destiny Conspiracy got the success...and here I am stuck in Jharsuguda, working in Manufacturing Sector, and that too in SCM (Operations).

But Interesting aspect is that I love my job (I am Serious....), and hate the Location....

During my complete study phase...I always believed in Party Harder concept....but there is no scope of doing the same.

When I joined the group...I was the least experienced person in the Project, now I am the most Experienced Buyer as far as this project (Largest Single Location Aluminium Smelter in World) is concerned. So you can just imagine the Attrition rate (more than 20 People left the Company in span of 2 Years, and total Size of Team is only 7-9 People)

But my hard Luck, even after trying hard, I am still waiting for an alternate opportunity to make a switch.

People who had less experience than me also get an opportunity, but no one consider me good enough...although my company knows my Value, that’s why rate me as an excellent employee and also promotes me in span of one year after confirmation. They award me ESOP’s and strengthens the Exit barrier for me.

Above scenario actually frustrates me...and the most beautiful thing happened to me, that is I got engaged, to a most precious Gem of this World.

She came as a cool Breeze in my Life....and now I am more eager to move out of Hell,

I don’t want her to struggle even for a second, how she would react to lifestyle of this town...I am not sure of..

But, don’t know when the tide will turn in my favour, People in Group now recognise me, I have a face value in this group due to my Hard work, and this is the right time to be in the group and grow as a professional, but should I sacrifice Luxuries in hope of better career???

Anyway, Let’s see how things turn up....but ya above lines do motivate me to keep on trying no matter what the situation is, I would find a way out....

Right Now....LOVE is in AIR.....and I am loving the Experience....

People Fall in Love, but this one motivates me to Rise.....